Well That Went Well

For some mad reason yesterday I looked up what was available in Clearing in Glasgow. I know I'm not qualified but thought 'hey maybe this close to start of term some one will be desperate to fill a place'. Saw a Bed primary teaching course at Glasgow Caledonian and emailed the contact link on the details. Was asking her if I might be qualified but when I told her the qualifications I had were gained in the east of Scotland she just tells me 'Newbattle Abbey College comes under Swap East and we would not recognise this.' Apparently my qualifications dont mean squat cos they were gained in the wrong part of Scotland. I'v had a creeping feeling over the last few months that I may have wasted an entire year of my life and I would say this confirms it. I had the most miserable year of my life at college. More unhappy than anyone could have imagined. I gave up everything I had. It may not have been much to most people but I was the closest thing I'd ever been to happy. Everything I had is gone now because I had to take some stupid chance to make my life better. I thought I could have a nice paying job, an education and a normal life. Its all gone wrong and turned out to be a nightmare. A year of my life gone and nothing to show for it. Now I'm in hundreds of pounds of debt, back to applying for cleaning jobs and admin positions that I only get considered for because I'm disabled. I can't even work in Macdonalds. I have no idea what to do. I just want to move on and forget I ever went to college. Unless someone invents a time machine and can go back a year, make sure I never hear of Newbattle Abbey. If they have make sure of it by pushing me under a bus that's fine with me.