oh what an up and down day

I get up for a 9am communications class (thumbs down) to be told I didnt need to be there this week (thumbs up) so went back to bed and had a strange dream about the college not being able to afford electricity. Couldnt have lunch today as there was roast pork – which I cant even be in the same room as (thumbs down) but dinner was really nice chicken (thumbs up) big thumbs down though as I got turned down for even any discussion of why I cant just cook for myself. They just keep saying the same things 'its in the rules' have you read your student handbook' you should have told us at the beginning of the year' when I pointed out I had they said 'well that was a year ago'. Hugely frustrating. God knows who's best interests this college has at heart but it sure as hell ain't the students! Urgh and that communications tutor (who unfortunately is also my guidance tutor) keeps suggesting I'm lying about everything I say thats remotely negative, she was saying today that I 'just don't want to pay' – well of course I dont want to pay for food I'm not eating! This is the same woman who every problem iv had with this college (and theres been a lot) has just gone 'I dont believe that happens here' or 'I dont believe that can be true' when I confessed I was struggling with a class. *takes deep calming breaths* 7 weeks to go. Though miracles could happen and I could get an immediate CSV placement – oh to escape now! Dont care if I get any qualification – just want this to be over.