my new home

switching away from bebo to find a proper home for my whinging. okay so catch up - my names aileen, im 21 and im living in a little town near edinburgh in the residential building of a crappy college. well until june 19th i am anyway. on that day my course here ends and im to be homeless. iv applied for a residential placement as a carer for a voluntary organisation called CSV but really worried im not gonna get anything. if not i have to apply to the council as homeless. last time i tried that here they were so agressive they actually made me cry. on top of all that im really broke as all i have is my DLA money and iv just had to buy a laptop after the one i had been borrowing from the college got broken and the college refused to lend me another one. laptop access is kinda important to me as i have really crappy eyesight and can barely read normal print. my handwriting is a bit all over the place and pretty much unreadable so i couldnt take notes and of course i couldnt see any of the powerpoint presentations the tutors use in class so it pretty much sucked. i hated being so left out of class without a laptop. the college said they would set up a pc in classrooms instead but that seemed daft. i mean there would have to be one in every classroom and theyr pretty cramped as it is - would have felt like a bit of an idiot as well. hate a big deal being made of the whole crappy vision thing. just want to deal with it as sensibly and quietly as possible. seems to be a bit of a problem with this place - they make a huge deal of everything and always manage to make me feel like a freak for having a couple of special requests. its all a bit frustrating but soon it will all be over. i am zen